Guru Maharaj had seen me, and it was my good fortune that
he was very much attracted to me. He was searching for some
boy who in the future could be like a guru. He had a formula.
The particular boy would need to be a Brahmin, intelligent,
etc. with that potential to be like a guru. At that time
Srila Guru Maharaj was searching for someone to groom to
continue his disciplic succession. When he saw me he tested
me. He called Srila Krishna das Babaji Maharaj and other
of his friends, and asked them to also test me.
each gave Srila Guru Maharaj a very good report about me.
Amongst those was Srila Guru Maharaj's sister, Rama Didi,
who is still residing here at the Math [this was spoken
in 1998 - Ed.]. She remembers everything. Rama Didi said
to Guru Maharaj, "Yes, I think this boy is very good." Srila
Guru Maharaj also asked her, "Rama Didi, you see this boy;
will he be good or bad in the future?" Rama Didi said, "The
future, I cannot say, but now he is looking good."
the beginning I was a little bit suspicious as to whether
I had done wrong or right. I was a young boy and already
I had made the step to leave home and join the Math, but
that was done really by emotion, not devotion. At first
I was very unhappy, but later when I got the mercy of Srila
Guru Maharaj, I became very happy.
after about one month, we went with Srila Guru Maharaj to
Midnapore District. Midnapore is where Sripad Jajavar Maharaj's
Math is. At that time Srila Guru Maharaj came close to declaring
that if he can train this boy, he will become his successor.
Then some friction came from our Math's brahmacharis, even
with that brahmachari who read Bhagavatam to me and who
previously liked me very much and took me with him many
times. Hearing Srila Guru Maharaj's expression everyone
became very envious and my fighting life started from that
Midnapore we presently went to Puri with Srila Guru Maharaj
for the Ratha Yatra programme. We had fifteen days in hand
and Srila Guru Maharaj sent us to a district called Ganjam
that preaching programme, a particular brahmachari did not
want to take me on to Puri for Ratha Yatra. Srila Guru Maharaj
was very angry. He sent a telegram to him to bring me immediately.
Actually, we only arrived on the Ratha Yatra day and Srila
Guru Maharaj chastised that brahmachari: "He is a new boy
and has not seen Ratha Yatra before. Why did you not want
to give him a chance to see the Ratha Yatra?" In this way
he heavily chastised him.