to Sri Guru and Sri Gauranga
The Glorious Devotees
16 December 2004
By the grace of Srila Guru Maharaj, what was making us apprehensive did not happen. Now I am told it will take six weeks time for recovery but I am thinking that Krishna and Srila Guru Maharaj are very merciful to me. I believe my presence in this world is necessary for seva, the divine service of Srila Kaviraj Goswamis (Memorial Temple at our Vrindavan Math) and other service opportunities that I have, and shall get. That is my thinking.
Because of all my well-wishers, especially Spd. Janardan Maharaj, Dr. Pusta Krishna Prabhu, Sarvabhavana Prabhu, Srutasrava Prabhu, and all the Didis, my health is now worry free. Especially, what Pusta Krishna Prabhu has done is inconceivable! I cannot repay his service. And in cooperation with him, the operation performed by Dr. Gutman and Dr. Setia (with Pusta Krishna Prabhu himself assisting), what they have done for me I cannot repay. My prayer to Lord Krishna is for their progressive service in this world. And in the spiritual world they will get more and more opportunity in the future. This is my prayer to Lord Krishna, who has been unlimitedly merciful to me. How merciful, it is impossible for me to express.
I am so surprised. I feel it is no quality or qualification of mine, but how has this come to me, this help from the transcendental world? I do not know. I only feel the merciful mystic power of Srila Guru Maharaj before, present and after. Faith is not so easy to get but when faith enters the heart of sincere seekers, they cannot deny that. I feel this has entered into my heart, by some merciful ray. People are saying this is my humility, but it is not my humility, it is the truth. In my life, when I have got too much disturbance, Srila Guru Maharaj always saves me by his mystic power.
Here all of the devotees in the Soquel Math are so enthusiastic to get relief for me. From little boys and girls to their mothers and fathers, to old men and women, everyone has got so much energy, so much affection, and they bestow so much love upon me. Their prayers to Krishna helped get me relief. What can I say? Within a few days they built a road up to the hill from my doorstep: an impossible matter. What had not happened in ten years happened within ten days! How much affection and love they have for me, no one can conceive. Our devotees may not be wealthy but their hearts are so broad and enlightened with Krishna consciousness. We are so fortunate to get their association here.
I came to Soquel, California for getting rest but after returning from Caracas and Veracruz, I became much disturbed by ill health. But now all is well by the energy and prayers of the devotees to Krishna. By their affectionate well wishes I think I am going to be in a healthy position. I am hopeful that the future will be most favorable to me for Krishna consciousness.
Spd. Ashram Maharaj came immediately from Mexico to stay with me for the duration. Spd. Goswami Maharaj always stays with me. Spd. Janardan Maharaj is in the mood of a young servitor of this Math. Spd. Akinchan Maharaj, Sarvabhavana Prabhu, Hasyapriya Prabhu, and so many others gave their help. Sanatani Didi is always with us for giving nourishment to everyone, not only me. When my operation time came, from that day many did not sleep for three or four days. Srutasrava Prabhu what can I say. And Swarnangii Didi, Sureshwari Didi, Kirtida Didi, Divya Shakti Didi, Kum Kum Didi, Jivana Didi, Diksavati Didi and all the young girls assisting them.
How many can I name actually? Nitya Hari and Sita all given their energy. Vidyasundar and Amiya Kanti, they went to Caracas and Veracruz for service. Kirtida Didi, Swarnangii Didi and Kamala Didi and Vaishnavi Didi, Kalindi Didi.
In Mexico Dr. Alberto Sánchez Galindo gave the first indication for my treatment. Lakshmirani and Madhuchanda, Raghunandan and all of the devotees of Veracruz, for a few days they were sleepless in the waiting room. This kind of affection I cannot conceive. Where did they get that? Really I am surprised. This is truth, not imagination. Divya Shakti Didi's selfless dedication is inconceivable we cannot say how much. She is not in very good health but she is doing so much for our Mission, as is Uma Didi and is Bimala Didi.
I must acknowledge the exalted service of Jamuna Priya and Ranajit Prabhu, who are always with me. Sleepless days and nights but still they are serving their beloved Gurudev. I have nothing to give them but they are giving everything for me. This is a special type of dedication for their Gurudev. It is inconceivable.
From outside many devotees are keeping contact about my health situation my gratitude to all of them. And always, top to bottom, Lalita Devi is always corresponding with the devotees for me. She is my very dear disciple. From the first time she is with me and continues with her full energy. My blessings to her. Krishna bless her, Guru Maharaja bless her what can I say more?
I am too much grateful. This Soquel Ashram is also Gupta Govardhan. And Srila Prabhupada Saraswati Thakurs Deities, Sri Sri Guru Gauranga Gandharvika Giridhari are bestowing Their mercy, much nourishment and blessings. How much merciful They are to all of the devotees and all of the living beings here.
What can I say more? My dandabat pranam to everyone.
by Srila Bhakti Sundar Govinda Dev-Goswami Maharaj
21st World Tour information including dispatches and pictures from London, USA, Venezuela and Mexico.